Inside, i'm dying .
My life officially sucks. I want my old life back. All my granny's nagging is killing me. I can't stand it anymore. All she does is blame us for everything even though we didn't do it. She vents her fustration at us. It's not fair to us. We're not her toy that she can just scold. Just because of my grandad she does things like this. I don't even have the time to study at all and seriously, i have no peace. I can't seem to get my mind into studying. Everyday, i have to help her with chores. What do you think i am? A full time maid? I really need alot of time to study. She just don't understand.
The main reason is, why am i here in the first place? It's all thanks to him. I think my life was way more better without a fucking stepdad. Everything started to change eversince he got into our family. I dont know why i'm saying this but i feel it. My mum don't even care about us anymore. I just want my old house back. I miss being there. I dont want to be living in this type of condition anymore. I think i really can't take it. I don't have anyone to share with it. Miserable, that's what i feel. I just wish that everything goes back to normal. I don't want to go back to JB. I don't want. It's tiring. Why must i be in this situation. Why wasn't i born with a perfect life like all my other friends. They seem to be living a carefree life unlike me. They have family and they always spend time with them regularly. How about me? It seems like i don't even have a family i could depend on. It's like no one cares about me. It's like each of my family members live in thier own world. We never spend time anymore. We never like last time anymore. How bad my mum is, i still love and miss her. I seriously want things to be back the way it was. I know i've repeat it a thousand times, but i really really fucking badly want my normal life back.
I wish...
